This is so surreal. Today is 20th May 2016. Pickle’s Due Date. The day we’ve been counting up/down to since we found out we were expecting last September. It’s been quite the rollercoaster journey since, and certainly not what I expected at all. But in all honesty, I did think Pickle might have been here by now. God knows why. I’m late for everything (except my own birth, ironically) and it looks as though baby will be following in my adult rather than infant footsteps. As long as they are fashionably late and not, you know, late-late.
It feels really surreal that this is likely to be one of the last pregnancy updates I write. I can’t quite believe I’ve now been pregnant for 38 weeks. Pickle could arrive any day now and as I hit the 39 week mark – I really am hoping it’s sooner rather than later. I’m ‘approved’ to go to the Midwife Led Unit as long as labour starts naturally before 42 weeks so I’m just keeping all my fingers crossed that I don’t end up needing an induction. I’ve got a few weeks before needing to cross that bridge… but nevertheless, it remains constantly on my mind.
I don’t know if it’s wishful thinking at this stage, but every day it feels like Pickle drops a little bit lower which I’m taking as a good sign although blimey, this bump isn’t half starting to feel heavy! I’ve definitely developed a rather pronounced pregnancy waddle and moving anywhere takes a considerable amount of time and effort. Yesterday I just walked the VERY short distance to the corner shop (to buy some golden syrup for my homemade flapjacks) and there was a moment where I wasn’t sure if I’d manage the walk back.
Well, I’ve hit the 38 weeks of pregnancy mark which means Little Pickle could decide to make their appearance any time in the next four weeks now… It goes without saying that labour is pretty much constantly on my mind at the moment and I’m doing my best to try and approach it positively. You may have previously read my post on Labour Vs. Marathon and if you have, you’ll know I enjoy a challenge. I know I function well if I’m determined to do something and setting myself a challenge seems to work well for that… so much like completing a marathon is an incredible physical challenge, I decided to set myself a Labour Challenge, something to complete whilst in labour to help me focus on something other than pain and give me something to work towards (apart from having a baby, obviously).
I’m aware this might sound like the most ridiculous thing. Surely birthing our first child is challenge enough? And yes, it definitely will be! But an added challenge might help me stay calm and help me out mentally. So what it is?
Big slap on the wrist for me, as it’s been over 7 weeks since I wrote a pregnancy update.. I’ve just re-read my 30 week update and I am so happy to report that I have definitely turned a corner. Life at 37 weeks is much happier, joyful and relaxed now (although with Pickle’s arrival imminent, I wonder how long the relaxation will last?!).
The biggest change that has brought about such a healthier approach to this pregnancy was finishing work early. I can’t begin to describe how much of a difference that has made. Physically, I feel better! I don’t seem to have so many aches and pains (although they’ve obviously not disappeared entirely), I’m eating well, drinking plenty of fluid and quite frankly – I just look better. I’ve lost track of how many times people have said to me in the last few weeks “Wow, you look great! So much better.” I must have looked pretty run down and shocking before! And the really good news? I’ve almost mastered the art of a better nights’ pregnancy sleep (the key I’ve discovered, is using a blanket rather than a duvet… it’s made the world of difference!). I even don’t mind getting up to go to the toilet like I used to. Things have really improved.
It may be a couple of weeks sooner than I expected, but I’m officially on maternity leave! Yippee! I always thought I’d work as long as I could during pregnancy, and couldn’t imagine anything worse than having heaps of time doing nothing before baby arrives but sometimes, life throws you a bit of a curve-ball and I can honestly say that leaving work earlier has been one of the best decisions I’ve made throughout this pregnancy. For the first time in months, I feel refreshed, healthy and like I’m doing all I can to ensure Pickle has the best possible start in life.
With five weeks until my due date, I’m determined to make the most of this new found time I have and a maternity leave bucket list sounds like the best way to make sure I use this precious time wisely and productively. Anything with a line through it, I’ve already done – how satisfying!
It’s been very quiet here on Little Pickle’s Mom for the past couple of weeks or so, but I’m hoping that’ll change now and we’ll be back to service as usual. I’m also hoping the mood and tone of the blog will start to improve – I’m feeling like I’ve turned a bit of a corner, but more about that another time…
The past two weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind where I made the decision to finish work a lot earlier than I was originally planning to. Back in the early days of pregnancy, I was determined to work as late into my pregnancy as I could to maximise time with Pickle once they were born – I’m sure many women have the same idea! However, in the last few weeks, it became increasingly apparent to me, and those around me, that perhaps finishing earlier would be the best thing. Not just for my own sanity (!) but for the well-being of baby. Thankfully, with the support from my midwife, my doctor and LPD, I feel so much better that I’ve now got some breathing room just to concentrate and prepare for Pickle’s upcoming arrival. I finally took my own advice.